This post was inspired by having to compete in a music festival. If you don't want to read about my experience today (yesterday, since I'm going to post this tomorrow) then just skip the next paragraph, but it'll make more sense if you do read it. Everything is just my opinion, as is everything else on the blog. If you disagree, you may kindly say so in the comments.
A few weeks ago, my piano teacher registered me into the fall festival into the Competitive Recital Class. Basically, I would be playing two songs and competing against whoever registered into that class, which turned out to be one. I ended up losing but I got some real great feedback from the adjudicator. I'd really like to point out, however, that the things he advised me upon were things that I hadn't known to start with. One piece for instance, was supposed to be played with pedal and my teacher never told me that. Another part of one song was supposed to be played slower to emphasize (here comes the musical term) the sequences that are used. These things I had not known and I'm grateful that I do now.
Now, I'm quite a competitive person and I'll admit that I hate losing, a sore loser. And I hate how that the feeling I get when I lose is how others feel when I win. Personally, I don't want anyone to feel bad because they lost a competition. Sometimes, they've succeeded based on their own standards, but for some people, it's not enough. That's a big reason as to why I hate competing, there's always someone coming out disappointed. **Edit: That person was me, but I'm slowly picking myself up because I know I did the best that I could. Do I wish I had a do-over? Yea, but can I have a do-over? No.
Yes I know, they'll (I'll) get over it sooner or later! But during that moment when I find out that I lost, there's kind of a huge moment of despair. And as for the winner, they have a moment of triumph. For me, that triumph used to be run over by guilt after shoving it into people's face that I beat them. I've learned my lesson now and I will never do it again. Now, that triumph is just short lived, I'm happy then it's just a normal day again. But when I lose, it takes a while to get over it.
What I'm trying to say that nothing is really a competition until you turn it into one. Maybe that's one reason why I don't join sports teams, besides my lack of skills. In my opinion, things you love to do shouldn't be a competition, and most of the time people do turn it into a competition of who is better (unless you're on a sports team or whatever). You should just do it because you love it and just for the fun of it, not to compete over who's better. However, competitions may sometimes be a driving force for people to improve as well, but that person isn't me.
Too late, I am wishing I could have told my piano teacher to register me into a normal, non-competitive, class, as I most likely would have received similar feedback from the adjudicators anyways.
I am not saying that I don't turn things into a competition sometimes. This post is kind of a goal for me as well: don't turn things into a competition. Life isn't about competing, maybe that's how people strive far, but to me I think it's really about just reaching personal goals. Frankly, I SUCK at setting goals, but that's one of my goals. Oh, the irony. And in the situation that you end up winning/losing, it shouldn't be the main thing. You should think about what you can take away from the experience, whether you win or lose, there is always something to learn.
How does this relate to anything on my blog? Bluntly, book blogging should not be a competition. Instead we should all be a team and help each other out, instead of trying to be the "better" one. After all, what is "better"?